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I have done bad things. I can’t take them back, and they are part of who I am. Most of the time, they seem like the only thing I am.
life is too short
kiss them
tell them
love them
walk away from them
forget them
move on
wear that
eat this
travel there
move here
dance to it
laugh at it
go for it
don’t wait
When he loves you, he will love you with all of his parts. With every last crumb in his pocket. With every last bill in his wallet. With every last blink of his eye. He will not try to catch his bearings because my dear, with you, there will be no such thing as bearings. He will do nothing halfway. He will love you with both hands behind his back. Without his arms in front of him to break his fall. He will fall into your chest, and weep into your mouth. His love will be like a lightning bolt. It will rip right through you, it will melt your resolve when you say you are not ready for him. His light will remind you why you’ve always loved tall trees and unexpected breeze and raindrops on car windows. His light will remind you why you’ve always loved the sun. It’s because the sun doesn’t just stop shining one day. It burns on. And even when you can’t see it, it’s still there. Yes, one day you will be loved like the sun; please don’t forget that.
I just want someone who’s excited to make out with me and text me all the time.
I just can’t imagine you going home to someone else. Falling into someone else’s arms. Closing your eyes next to someone else. But I’m afraid that’s what will happen.
3 AM on a Tuesday and instead of sleep, my heart demands more whiskey.
I am trying to erase this ghost of a feeling that wants nothing but to remember you at all times.
My ears long to hear your voice but I’ve already burned the bridge.
My Darling, I’m sorry I ended up being nothing like the person I promised you I would be.
I’m filled to the brim with guilt for not sticking by you as long as you would’ve let me.
You see, I’m not like the people who walk this earth only to love and love with all of their being and ask for nothing in return.
I still try to find constellations in your eyes and look for you in places even though I do not want to look at the love that I loved so dearly looking into the eyes of someone they call ‘home’.
You’ve occupied a lot of space in my heart and there’s nothing I could ever say or do to fall out of love with you but I hope, years from now, your name does not fill me with guilt but with sweet nostalgia that reminds me of a love that taught me how to live. A love that looked at all my scars and all my flaws but still chose to love me. A love that made sure I wasn’t fighting my battles alone. A love that held my hand in all my struggles and told me that there’s nothing in this world I couldn’t do. And most importantly, I hope, years from now, you forgive me.
But it’s 3 AM on a Tuesday and instead of sleep, my heart demands to forget you.
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